The past three hundred and sixty-four days was a series of ups and downs filled with learning and life changing moments.
I opened my 2017 by finally leaving a job that was able to open a huge window for me – so huge, that at first I felt so small. So small that I felt like I was shrinking every waking day. But I didn’t let that affect me. Or at least I pretended not to let it affect me. It was hard at first but, look at me now, satisfied and grateful with where I am right now. The feeling of content is finally just around the corner.
This 2017, I spiraled down. I felt helpless and hopeless. I felt like I was no one, like I didn’t matter. But with courage and a bit of pep talk, I finally took the first step. And yes, I know I still have 99 more steps to climb but I will get there, I will get better. Slowly but surely (I hope!).
This 2017, I learned how to segregate. Not trash, but people. I was finally able to distinguish fake from real. And with that, I was able to build my own support system. My system consists of few but [very] important people in my life. I won’t name names, but you should know who you are 🙂
And finally, this 2017, I learned how to trust and forgive myself. I have committed a lot of mistakes this year (work-wise) but just recently learned to forgive myself. I’m not a perfect human being and I guess making mistakes is part of being human.
This coming 2018, I’d still be the same person, only a bit better. As I said, I’m climbing up the ladder of getting better. Still far from there, but I’ll get there.
This coming 2018, I would like to apologize in advance if I end up treating you, my fake friends, like a piece of trash. It’s probably because 1) you treated me like trash (or at least that’s how I felt) and/or 2) you are a trash (it may be your attitude or physically or better, both).
This coming 2018, I’m excited to build new memories with family and friends.
2017 thanks for everything – opportunities, friends for keeps (old and new), memories, learning and challenges.
2018, I’m excited for you. I’m also still waiting for my prince charming.